This is exactly how I feel. My looks are one of the only remarkable things about me. Since I don't have a ton of other great qualities it's the only thing that gives my life worth and value. Im decently intelligent, but nothing even remotely close to a genius. I'm also pretty funny too, are at least my friends think I am, but my actual social and conversational skills are severely lacking. I was really good at making friends when I was younger, but after high school started, all of that suddenly dissapeared and I only had a few friends and some of the ones I did ended up turning their backs on me. Bascially my looks provided me with something that didn't make me feel like a useless piece of trash floating through the wind and I could actually stand up and say with confidence I was much more attractive than almost all the guys around me. This turned me into an arrogant egomaniac that is still a central part of me today, but in reality it's just a defense mechanism I use to protect myself from feelings of inner shame and worthlessness. I wouldn't say I have body dysmporphia tho. It's quite the opposite. I tend to overestimate my own attractiveness. If I wasn't good looking tho, Idk what I do and it would undoudetly shatter my self esteem.